I received news that Terry and Trish Sullivan (old family friends were killed in a car accident near Tenant Creek driving back to Darwin that morning). Pretty shocking and sad news.
I cried a little as I was reluctantly taken back to my childhood and the inevitable process of accessing life and death. But what about the lives lost whilst still living? I rolled a cigarette and sat with overwhelming and unwanted thoughts about the way I have spent my own time lately avoiding such late night pondering, star gazing and smoking.
I have now made a space for this recent grief and filled it with thoughts about my own wasted potential. A feeling I am too often faced with when contemplating my life as a moving, shifting tectonic plate, capable of collapse and renewal at any given time.
On the advice from my friend Tash I did go and catch the last screening of 'Life in Movement' documentary about a late choreographer killed suddenly just as she was embarking on a new chapter of her creative journey through movement. I have lately avoided any dance related anything, because I'm so mixed up about how I feel without it in my life. It's been 4, going into the 5th year now since I have danced or been dancing daily.
A parallel universe that I've been pretending to accept.
After the film I spent the afternoon aimlessly strolling from Carlton to Collingwood in deep, solemn tearful thought about my own creative life lost and still living.
Grief is funny like that. It attaches to lots of other memories and emotions and makes a very strong connection deep in your soul. It's so powerful when grief decides to summon it all up in a tsunami like motion, intent on thrashing you around furiously until you're disoriented and washed up listless and cold on a shore somewhere between where you were and where you're going.
So that's where I am.
And I've decided to document it somewhat.
So today 4 things happened that shifted things around, and these things were:
1. Author Aaron Blabey came to give a talk at Richmond West Primary (where I work) for Literacy Awareness week.
http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/6798764-sunday-chutney
He was wonderful! Lots of heart and soul in his work.
Funny I just read this book last week and loved it!
It's about a little girl, Sunday Chutney who's constantly moving from place to place, school to school. It's really charming. In the talk/workshop Aaron taught us how to draw a character of his. I'll post it.
2. Nicks Blogging. http://excitedinspiredandgrateful.blogspot.co.uk/2012/05/inspiration-rules-ok.html
3. Chatting to Nick and Tash about writing my own blog and documenting my journey towards living a life closer to how I feel and how I've changed.
4. Rhys's blog:
http://thebuoyarchives.blogspot.com.au/
Until next time...
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